“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”
I left early that morning. I kissed Vanessa as she slept, grabbed my suitcase, and closed the bedroom door behind me. I then tip toed into Lily-Rose’s room and bent down to brush the hair from her eyes as she clutched a little toy in her sleep. I kissed her forehead and turned off her nightlight. I then slowly opened the door into Jack’s room. He slept silently in his crib to the quiet music of a baby lullaby toy hanging above him. I put my finger by his hand and he slowly began to hold it. I then checked my watch- I had to go.
It was dark out and a black van waited outside for me. When I got in my agent immediately began telling me the schedules for the next few days. I was to fly to New York this morning, do a press conference, a photo-shoot, then fly to London to meet a director for an upcoming project, and finally be fitted for a costume there also. I put my hand to my head in fatigue as Jerry, my bodyguard, handed me a coffee.
The plane hummed and I could see the sun ready to rise in the East. I thought of my kiddies and Vanessa. They would wake up and I’d be gone, again. I then put myself in their shoes for a moment …
They have a father who is always going somewhere. I’ve missed out on a preschool musical production due to work … I’ve never been able to go a parent teacher conference. Vanessa has to call her sister up from France to come help her when I’m gone- because Lily-Rose is a ball of energy and Jack needs special attention. I imagine Lily-Rose asking her mommy where daddy is again.
When the sun’s light shone through the airplane’s windows due to it’s rising, any person could tell I had been crying.